Today I gonna show off and do some "bend-your-arm-up-and-down" skills.
Whata show!

My little cousin will turn this house up side down soon. We enjoying it so it´s fine.
He´s so adorable!

And the most important of this day my ugly nameday!
Congrats to me!
I will give myself a ticket to downunder!
Wohooo!!

Mom have to stop with all these sunday goodies. She makes me fat.
But as usual it was delicious!

This weekend I saw two fotball games and I loved to hear the sound , foot touching fotball.
Sweet sweet sound.
Tomorrow I gonna buy new runners and go out for a run. With or without my terminator arm.
Gym hope u have missed me.. I´coming back!!
Wohho.
All this power.

In 6-7 days I will be on a plain to my love:)

Right now I have a terrorize-all-your-friends-that-has-a-life-and-don´t-use-their-facebook-every-20min- tour.
Yes, I feel sorry for myself but thats the word right there, I don´t have a normal life right now.
It looks like this: Go up, take medication, walking like a zoombie to toilet (morning pee time), back to bed,
fall asleep, wake up, breakfast, medication, sleep, time hits lunch, get ready for the day (wich takes me twice the time that it usually does), look at the phone, call people that trying to get me out of bed earlier, do something that activate my body and brain for a while and then back to bed because I get to tired of doing all this.
In between all this basic stuff I have probably looked at my mail and facebook 10 times.

And No, this is not an okey behaviour. I feel sick of myself. On the other hand -What I wanna do I can´t do.
On monday I gonna start visit the gym again. I need to throw this terminator arm away, It´s killing me.
I´m the worst patient ever. I hate to do nothing.

Maybe I can start to learn how to do this.. I just need one arm to do that ;)

It´s horrible! How can people do anything like this?
See it!






When I wake up tomorrow I hope I have alot more energy.
Today I send my request for  eVisitor Visa.
Can´t wait.
Soon I´ll be in my hotties arms!

That´s how I look like - white, sleepy and hairy.
White - wtf, where is my tan?
Sleepy - hey hey pills
Hairy - Need to cut my hair, it has a salt water touch right now.
I know it´s sexy but sometimes it goes from sexy to trash.. (on my way)

Tonight everybody has left the house and I gonna bring a hugh party..
LIAR!!
Naa.. I gonna stay at Emma´s place and our soldier Carol is home for a week from Kosovo
movie time 2.0.
Last night was a perfect - The movie Sin Nombre was something for the trashbin and all the candy
fits perfect on our hips today.
Do I need to tell you how much I miss the gym!! AHH!


Today I started to look in to diffrent Visa for OZ.
It seems that I will start with subclass 676 and after that take WH Visa.
It´s a jungle.

If im lucky I can book my ticket to 1st of Maj. :)))

Should I be a lawyer or what? Dr Scheer said plaster.. I  said we´ll see.
Tadaaaa - Do I have plaster? Nooooo:)
My cool outfit is uniqe.. Terminator arm plus joystick is the shit.
I wonder how I gonna sleep with this thing.
Too much pain and to tired to write more. As you can see, I´m alive but still high.
Not too much energy in me right now , back to bed .


I wonder if Tyra Banks thinks that I´m smiling with my eyes here:)
V.I.P member of the Ghost busters
?

My barbies:)

Bye bye Emelie!

My first passport photo. I was 5 or 6 years old and a very angry little girl.
Probably because the sweatshirt.
Look at me - a little fat kid too! HAHA 
Photo to the right is mom maybe 10 years ago.
I didn´t dare to post my other passport photo
Mom and I are too look a like.



 My older Brother Robin and I.
Mom again - the haircut!?!
And you asking yourself why I´m a tomboy.
Hm..
LOL!
Is every swedish kid blonde up to 10 year?
My brother and I is noooot blonde now!
Wierd!



We actually were the campions for a long time.
Some of these articles are 10 years old.
We were young as hell.. haha.



I found my t-shirt from Elite fotball camp -2001.
Coooool!




Dinner time and dessert time.
Raspberries pannacotta. It was delicious!


Honestly, I think mom is scared that I gonna lose kilo during my non-eating-hours
starting 12 pm tonight.

Attention!!!
This picture is a picture of a toy - Not a real embryo!

Are kids playing with this kind of toys nowdays??
An alien embryo?
It´s SICK!!




I found it in my little brothers room.
UH!

Boom Boom Pow and there we have 5 pages of all the stuff I wanna have money for.
A Piece of cake - I wish.
I feel like a terrorist with a body loaded with bombs,
get pretty moody to write this shit.

This week I talked to my officers at my insurance company .. He told me that my "case" is very complicated.
As if I didn´t know.
He advised me to demand money for every little thing I could think of.
Believe me .. I'm going too!!

Now I have counted all the costs that has anything to do with my arm..
Not an easy task, so far it´s around 10 074,598 Swedish kronor (U.S. $ 1404.771).
So much money!!
Now I have ,perhaps, the most difficult thing to go, explain
 -in writing-
 (belive me it will be in swedish.. Don´t you all love my swenglish!?!?! LOL) 
of all I want compensation for and what has and hasn´t worked between me and my incurance company and SOS International.

Such a lovely Saturday.

I love my "sister" and my Charlie so much!
In other words, best friend and her son.
YES, she´s a MILF!;)
Look at them.. Happy family!
♥








They never said they were normal!





How angry can you be?


     

Pretty ladies!!




My babe is so cool - Charlie the PIMP! :)



This moment says everything
♥

Todays schedule;
Taxi driver on moms order.
Foooooood
(kind of most important)
Pick up mom
Go to the gym
Enjoying the sun
Meet some friends
Chill night

If mom see this she will kill me.
her list for me would look like this..

Taxidriver for mom
Food
Pick up mom
PACK YOUR STUF TOGHETER- before the surgery-
Organize your stuf and throw some away.

We will see. I hate, hate, HATE to pack.
I haven´t unpacked my bag from  Bali yet. Opps!

is it just a trick or is she sick?

Mom screamed from the kitchen; Emelie, do you want me to put some extra mushrooms in the your food.
You seemed to liked them at Gili..

Mom go back to bed. Noooo muchrooms!!

Mom need help with some shopping today, and whom is not best if not Shoppaholic her self?
Thats right , she don´t know the consequences of giving me her kredit card.. 
I will try handle it with respect..
She can relax, it´s Motala we´re talking about. Not much I wanna buy here.

A woman from the surgical planning called me and gave me some information about Monday.
07:15 am it's my dead line.
It just hit me that I can drive car for over six weeks.
I can´t do the limited work out that I can do now at the gym.
But I need my arm so.. I just have to deal with it.

Until Dear John is released, I have to stuff myself full with other love movies.
Remember Me is just one of them.
It is obvious what will happen but there is so much good on the road.
I thought, and was probably alone on the feeling, the end was very good. It really was a movie that give you some tears on your cheek and suddenly you will end up with`I wanna be in love`- or just ´Incredibly angry`- moment.. but just a few times.:)
Choose yourself there is something for everyone.  

The sorrow you feel when you losing someone you love and know that you never will see the person again is the worst pain.. Is 7 (I think..) years ago and I am still thinking of him everyday. How would our life look like if you were alive? Would you be proud? Would you still have your house in that place I wanna call - shithole?
Would I have more contact with my sister?

  But still.. I belive that I am the happiest girl right now!
During life you learn how to deal with certain things
It can be like a annoying bitch that stalking you, when you thinking about it, it is only you who can control it.
It is your bitch!

Happy happy happy happy!!

Surgery for me on Monday!!!!

They said; Your arm will be fragile for 3 month..
I said; When can I go to Australia??
They said; 3 weeks after your surgery.
I said; We will see...

To be continued.

1:40 pm
Nervous!
Im not gonna leave the hospital without some info (date and time) about my surgery.
Hold your thumbs for me.

Kheleila



I hope I have some answers about
 the surgery tomorrow!
Miss my babe soo much.

Muttis-crew!:)